That would be the time remaining until I am officially screwed. Like, I'm so dead. Julia and Alida are calling it death day.
it's the day of that valentines day dance i have to go to... where shawn and jake will be. same room. eek. i also kinda agreed to go with jkae casually.. and im just not sure how i feel about that. because well.. we'll see.

shawns mad at me for god knows why. something to do with my being angry over him laughing at a picture of me and alida or something. i wasn't even angry. but alida was like in history, shawn why are you mad at haley, and he was like because haleys a whore, jokingly and then alida goes " awe, are you jealous of her and jake" and shawn lost it. so, i dont know how to take that. because he still isn't talking to me. and alida also told jake that jack was sexually harassing me in art. which he was. but as a joke. and jack was like omg. if that was anyone else, id be all over the floor right now. it was funny

so last night cousin casey came over and she was texting nicole, her ex's ex. i dont really know. but they were fighting up until last night... and casey was literally on the phone with her in my drive way. and this morning, nicole died. i dont really know her or anything. but she's a cousin of a girl i used to be super super close with. it's really freaking crazy and insane. she was texting and she fell down the stairs and broke her neck, and her heart stopped. im really not sure. but its really really freaky. and it makes me appreciate my lack of stairs in my house so much more.  like, honestly. it just freaked me out.

i didn't know her. but, i'm really really sorry. jaclyn, as soon as i see you, im giving you the biggest hug, EVER. 
<3333

i had a snow day today; and sleeping in was incredible. especially because ive been so emotionally drained and stressed. my mom came in to let me know, and i had to pee. which kinda ruined my deep sleep; but what can you do. 
the rest of my sleep was dandy. except; my day was so disrupted becasue i ahd to get a filling fixed at like four, which i was terrified four because of that dumb needle. and the freezing only came out like an twenty minutes ago.

i fell in love with secondhand serenade today. and it was wonderful. i also ate pancakes; said happy birthday to jake. shawn asked me if taylor looked good with braces, which was hilarious because i joked with alida about dating him to make shawn mad. but im not that catty. 

if nathan hooks up with that nanny on one tree hill. im freaking.

Basically, I have finished my exams, thank god. that stupid music was the death of me. but, i dont really care; its not like i want to be a musician. it was exceptionally stupid when i was ditched again. and although its cute; please dont put your arm around me in subway infront of his best friends. although; you're hitting my leg under the table until i hit back and then we rested them together was alright; i suppose thats allowed

hot boy has a girlfriend, which also made me want to, im not sure. and chelsie was like: if she wasnt one of my best friends, i would so break them up for you. but i cant. but i could never ever get someone to do that for me. and i told her that; and as she said; well if it was some bimbo, i would do it. it wouldnt be on you. 

jakes birthday is tomorrow. im pretty much have a minor spazz attack over this. because i know i should end it. but end it for what?
because i do care for him. he just isn't really, well.. i dont even know.

i have to work tonight. i hate work